I love you too!!

I am sure reading the title of my article you thought its a love story. Well, you are correct but its not a romantic love story, its my love for my dad and his love for me. Undoubtedly every father loves his daughter and every daughter loves her father. We are no different. He is not only my father but my guide and my best friend. I just love him so so much.
                          

I know just in a span of a couple of years we would be parted and I feel bad thinking that. Someday I will find my prince charming but dad will always be my king.I want my special someone to love me like my dad does but I know its next to impossible. 

                          

The level of patience he endures is commendable. Although, I have been an obedient child since the time I was born but still their were many moments I was wrong. He never scolded me, instead he always stood by my side to correct me. His super workaholic attitude irritates me at times but that burning spirit inside him motivates me too.

        I have seen an undying spirit in him. He wants to keep on improving. Whatever may be the time he does what needs to be done. When I listen to his childhood stories I get emotional. Mine childhood was far better than his. He started earning when he was in class five. Even though he does not have huge success stories like Ambani's but in my eyes he is not less than a hero. Whatever he has achieved in life is historic.                         

I am 20 but he takes care of me like I am 2. Whenever I am about to fall in life his experience saves me. I love being daddy's little girl.  I have failed in life many times, have been criticised even more but I know one voice will be on my side forever. He never says he loves me, I can just feel his love in his words. 

             When I think how much I love him I cant say anything. I can just see myself stopping him from eating the sweets which he love as he is diabetic. I can just see myself massaging his head when he comes back from work. I wish to talk to him when I see him tensed. I feel sad when he is low. I feel stressed when he is unwell. I feel like killing anyone who says bad about my father. I get worried when he is not back home on his regular time. 

                        

I don't need a fathers day to say-Papa, I love you!!!

               

Being a failure

Alone sitting on my bed waiting for a call from my friend feels bad. Having a cup of tea in my hand and tears rolling down. Today when all my family members have gone out I feel sad. I am not at all missing mom dad but missing my old buddies and thinking what mistake have I done that they have left me. Feel rejected and depressed. When I think of my friends i am fully envisaged with old memories.
                                   
It was 2009 when I passed out from school. Being a science student I wanted to do engineering. I did not have any interest in science so my family suggested me to change my field. I went to a career counsellor and he suggested me CA (seeing my past results). Enthusiastically I left my stream and joined CA. I seperated from a dozen friends. I remember it was the last date of registration when I got myself enrolled. Entry level exam was a difficult task but still I managed. I made new friends and I was okay with the atmosphere of class in sometime. I decided that I have to pass that exam. Entirely new subjects, new classmates seemed difficult but with hardwork and sincerity I could do it. It was the day of results and with the grace of god I passed.

                                        
Again with the same enthusiasm I joined level 2 classes. 9 months class period was awesome. I made so many good friends and now I hardly missed my old ones. Even after class we did not loose contact. I was sure that I will fail in the first attempt , my buddies were not. We ALL failed. It was expected. We again prepared and 3 of us passed, 7 failed again. We again prepared and 4 of us passed, 3 were still left. We again prepared 2 of us passed, 1 still left. That was me!!!
                                      
I prepared again and failed again. I prepared again and gave exams, results are still to come but I think I have lost he battle. All my friends are busy. The old ones are busy with new ones and the new ones are busy with newer ones. I am lonely. They hardly remember me. Its been a year I have not received a message(except birthdays). When I call they are busy, with studies, with classes and studies. I CANNOT blame anyone because it is me and ONLY me who is at FAULT. Eventhough I have completed my graduation but I have nothing in hand except the looser failure tag!!
                                
I don't know where my future will lead me but for now I am super lonely and simply feel miserable as I have nothing to do and my life has become purely aimless. Not at all feeling awesome...